My Story

This was me, the old me. I was sick, unhealthy, terrified, depressed and full of anxiety. I could put on a really good smile and pretend I was perfect in order to please everyone else, but inside was a fragile bird with a broken wing.

I had lost my way and forgot what it felt like to feel joy anymore. In 2013 after the loss of my Grandmother, shatter and devastated, I began picking up the pieces of my broken heart. When all of the sudden, I found out I was pregnant! This was wonderful news and for a brief time, relieved the sorrow I felt. Unfortunately, this happiness was short lived as everything started to go wrong.

On Valentine's day I started to lose my baby, and a few days later on my birthday, I miscarried. This lead to a series of complications, two surgeries and hospital visits every week to what ended up being cancer. Yes, the dreaded “C” word! I will never forget sitting with the doctor and her telling me that we needed to start Chemotherapy right away and thinking, “wait a minute....how did this happen to me? How did I get here?” Tears ran down my face when I looked at my parents. They hugged me and said "Everything will be okay" but I could see the terror in their eyes. I had no choice but to pull myself together, paint a smile on my face and move forward, so I did.

Two weeks later I had my first Chemo treatment. I was blessed to have the best Chemo Crew with me every step of the way. my parents, sister and husband were my rocks. My poor husband had to do and see things no man should have too, but always remained brave, strong, supportive, and incredibly loving through the whole process, I was and still am so grateful for him everyday. As the long nightmare finally started to came to an end, I was given an opportunity to ring the chemo bell which signalled that I had completed my treatments and the cancer was in remission! This was an incredible day for me, I'll never forget ringing the bell and having the patients and staff come over to hug me and them telling me, “I never want to see you again, you better never come back!” It’s probably the only environment where you get to know people and hope to never have to see them again. In that moment I was so happy to be done, but also so sad; There were so many wonderful people who were still sitting in those chairs having treatments and didn’t know if they would ever get to ring the bell. This moment was life altering, something I'll never forget but always be grateful for.

My journey after this was a long one; I had a long road to recovery in front of me, not just physically but mentally. I was a changed person, but came out with my head up and had faith in my future. After all, I was one of the lucky ones, I made it through!

2014 came in a flash and I was eager and excited to start what I knew, would be a better year ahead. I was getting married, excited to try and get pregnant again. Things were looking up. Towards the end of 2014, I lost my corporate job (no big surprise there though). I had become a different person and couldn’t be who they wanted me to be anymore. I wasn't willing to spend everyday working 24/7 at the expense of missing out on those precious moments in life with my family and friends, not after everything I had gone through. I took some time off to figure out what I wanted to do and at the beginning of 2015, I found out I was pregnant!! In my mind this pregnancy meant I was finally living again, everything I wanted so badly was finally coming true! The excitement was off the charts! I was 11 weeks pregnant, when I suffered another miscarriage. in that moment, I was shattered into a million pieces, my heart became a jig saw puzzle that needed to be put back together, but I felt like some of the pieces were missing, I had no idea where to start. Due to my past, I had to have another surgery. Which lead to finding out I had a cyst on my ovary that involved another surgery after that. This would be my fourth surgery in less than 2 years. 2015 wasn’t shaping up to be a very happy year, and I began to sink into the deepest depression I’ve ever been in. I started to give up, and if you know me, that wasn’t me at all. I felt like the person I used to be was fading away, piece by piece until I just didn’t exist anymore. I was in a very dark place.

My family could see through the facade I was putting on and started to worry. My husband saw me crying all the time. I felt like an empty vessel, walking around with no emotions and felt nothing. I stored all of the pain as deep as possible so I wouldn’t have to deal with it. I was so scared and couldn’t even talk about any of it without crying uncontrollably, so shutting off seemed to be the best option for me.

The one day while I was crying sitting on our patio my husband came outside and said “What can I do, this isn’t you” and in the moment I stopped, looked at him and surrendered to the Universe and said “I NEED HELP!” This moment was the turning point in my life. I knew I needed help and couldn't continue to live in this state of pain and struggle anymore. All of the sudden I found an amazing therapist and then my good friend invited me to an essential oil class and my life changed. I was so attracted to the oils and all they could do for my body and emotional well being that I instantly bought some. I had no idea how to use them, or what they would actually do for me but knew in my soul that I needed them badly. I was toxic! I started using the oils I felt most drawn too and was finding such comfort and emotional relief. I felt lighter in my body, healthier, clearer, and wasn’t sitting in my depression as much. My anxiety was under control and I wasn’t getting sick as much anymore. I felt strong again! I fell in madly love with Doterra Essential Oils. I could feel the light in me starting to shine brighter, I was finding myself again, and it was such a beautiful, freeing feeling….

The defining moment for me was when my mom looked at me and said “There’s my girl” It makes me emotional to this day just thinking about it because in that moment I realized that I was back, I didn’t fade away and my heart had finally pieced itself back together. It was like I was breathing for the first time.

Now I’m a very different person then I was a few years ago. I'm now a woman who is so grateful, happy, and full of joy. I have a beautiful, healthy baby boy, and am still blessed with an amazing husband and family. Life is beautiful. I felt such shifts when I started using Doterra Essential Oils that I knew I needed to share them with other people. I now have a thriving health and wellness biz with Doterra essential oils that I’m in love with. I decided to make the personal choice to live a toxic free life, where I can inspire and educate others everyday, and with a business that rewards me for doing so.

When I look back on my past now, I'm so grateful I went through everything I did. Why you ask? Because it shaped me into who I am today and lead me to the path I was meant to go down. Sometimes I wonder if I was living so unconsciously that the only way the universe could get me back onto the right path was by turning my life upside down for a while so I could get clear again on my divine purpose. I was meant to lead a life of service, one that allows me to share my story and help others walk out their journey. We all have a story, and have all been through something in our lives, but it’s how we let it define us that makes all the difference, we can always choose happiness.

If there is one thing I can leave you with, it’s this. Enjoy the journey, it’s not always going to be pretty or even close to perfect but it is all part of the path you're meant to go down, and the lessons you're meant to learn. Find the light in each day and give gratitude for even the smallest things, it will all be worth it!

Until next time,

Andrea XO